A slow build.
A few days ago, I decided to change my morning routine. For the past year, I have woken up, written my Morning Pages, and gone to the gym. Now, I wake up, write my Morning Pages, write my daily blog post, work on my screenplay, and then go to the gym.
This choice—although relatively minor in comparison to the other choices I need to make throughout my day—came after my realization that I need to give myself more time to do what supports my writing.
More time to sleep. More time to write at the time of day when I am the least distracted. More time to build my creative practice.
Up until this week, I have being trying to rush things. My low-key to full-blown anxiety about my debt lead me to explore multiple avenues for making money that ultimately proved fruitless. Mostly because the thing that drives me is more interested in writing than in paying off her debt.
While my creative self recognizes her need for financial stability, nothing matters if she’s not writing. Nothing matters if she moves through another year without something to show for her creative efforts.
So I’m in the process of reworking my plan. I’m in the process of figuring out what needs to be tweaked, turned around, or tossed so that my writing—the work that matters most to me—gets every opportunity to thrive.
Of course, I am still committed to paying off my debt in the next two years. But the choices I make to get there are going to be very different than if I made being debt free my sole/soul focal point.
This is a slow build.
Which means I get to be more intentional with the paid work I say yes to so I don’t have to keep stopping and starting financially. It means that the choices I make—even the simple ones about my morning routine—get to be in support of me chipping away at my creative work on a daily basis.
What changes when you let yourself create slowly?