I have a daily practice of budgeting as self-care.
This morning, I was updating my budget and realized that some unaccounted for expenses have influenced whether or not I reach my goal of paying off my debt by the end of this year.
I could cut costs elsewhere to make my goal.
Alternately, I could find more work that would guarantee I can keep up with my self-imposed repayment schedule.
Or, I could adjust my deadline as I continue to work on building my coaching business.
My initial thought was that I would be selling out by not paying off my debt as soon as possible. I had plans to do a motorcycle trip through Europe next summer and get back to my life as a digital nomad.
Extending the time it took me to become debt-free would mean I’d have to postpone this until the following year.
I have built a lifestyle for myself that allows me to work from anywhere. Now, I’d be spending at least an additional six months to a year living somewhere that was only meant to offer temporary stability while I got my finances in order.
Upon further reflection, however, I realized that not extending my debt-repayment timeline—and focusing solely on making money—was actually selling out.
Not because there’s anything wrong with being motivated to make more money.
But because it would mean that I would be behind on doing the work I feel called to do. It would mean delaying being of service to the people I want to help.
In a world that demands we live exciting, Instagramable lives 24/7, it can feel like selling out on the way to doing work that’s meaningful to you if you opt for stability instead of adventure.
It can feel like selling out if you’re not living into the lifestyle that you aspire to make affordable one day.
But what if selling out is more nuanced than that?
What if selling out is always reaching for the next thing, instead of cultivating what you already have?
What if selling out is letting the external things—lifestyle, location, mobility—get in the way of the internal things, like being able to show up consistently and do your best work as you connect to the people who matter to you?
Of course, there are people who have the means to do both.
And, if you’re like me and your money reality means this choice is either/or, I hope you choose to not sell out.
I hope you choose to let where you are and what you have to work with be enough.
I hope you choose to turn down the noise on the muchness of the world so you can stay committed to doing the work you feel called to do. (Or figuring out what that work needs to be.)
I hope you don’t sell yourself short by reaching for immediate gratification as you share the work that only you can create.
So, what does selling out mean to you?
And what are you doing to make sure you don’t sell out?