So close.

So close.

I’m less than a month away from launching the creative project I’ve been working on full-time since February. Being so close to putting it out into the world is both exciting and terrifying. As I near the finish line, I’m leaning hard on the capabilities I’ve been developing over the past three years. Things like my ability to feel what I’m feeling without reacting to it or interpreting my emotions as truth. Feelings aren’t facts runs on repeat in my head.

Beyond skillfully navigating my emotions, I’ve also been paying close attention to my ways of checking that the work I’m doing is good enough. This means constantly reminding myself of what really matters when it comes to this project. As much as I care about its aesthetics, what’s most important is that I’ve built a resource that allows creatives to get into a healthier relationship with money.

The last time I was this close to launching a project of a similar scale, I ended up in the hospital and it never came to fruition. So in addition to reminding myself that feelings aren’t facts, I’m also practicing patience as I navigate this new territory. Which makes for a slow-moving process. My workflow has taken on a start/stop rhythm and it seems like every day I realize that there’s another step I forgot to add to my to-do list. 

Outside of the project tasks I need to complete, I am keeping close watch over the other parts of my life that influence my creative work. Things like getting enough sleep, daily exercise, and eating well. There’s just as much possibility for self-sabotage through those channels as there is through the project itself. Putting my health and wellbeing on the backburner to push through to the finish line is what put a stop to my entire creative practice six years ago.

When I step back from my work, the only thing that’s different at this stage of creation is more intensely felt anticipation. Everything else is the same. I still have to show up and chip away at the day’s tasks. I still have to look after myself and make time for what’s good. I still have to solve problems as they arise and adjust my timelines and expectations accordingly. In this way, these last few weeks are very similar to the first few and the ones in between.

Keeping this larger perspective in mind, I am turning my attention to the minutiae of each day. With a limited number of hours to put to use, my main priority is to use the time I have productively. It’s to show up present and excited to do the work I need to do. And it’s to be vigilant about taking care of me. I’m so close to healing the creative trauma that sent me into hiding and I’m going to get there one day at a time.

So, what helps you persist when you’re close to the finish line?

Body affirmations.

Body affirmations.

Creative assets.

Creative assets.